chianlin

不完整的旋律

2011-08-02T23:00:00.003+08:00

I love this song so much! Originally sing by Wang Lee Hom and now I try to sing and record it here.... a short part of it! =]

如果的事

2011-07-18T22:02:00.002+08:00

歌词：

我想过一件事
不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持
爱情的意思
像风没有理由
轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有
所谓的对与错
不管时间
说着我们在一起有多坎坷
我不敢去证实
爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持
也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服
我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制
每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的cd
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事
我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你

Way Back Into Love

2011-07-05T18:47:00.002+08:00

An old nice song which I listened long long time ago. Here I share it with you and hope you will enjoy with this lovely song.

Lyrics :

I've been living with a shadow overhead

I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I've been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past

I just cant seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need them again someday

I've been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

Ooooooo hooow

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I've been searching but I just dont see the signs

I know that its out there

There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some lights

Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction

And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I dont know if its real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love

I cant make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I'm hoping you'll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

Tarot Card - The Fool

2011-06-28T11:03:00.001+08:00

As if you know how to play Tarot card, you will know that the explanation of each card is relative and subjective. There are different meaning for upfront and reverse cards. Here, I would like to share the very first card - THE FOOL.

PRIMARY MEANING

This is the first card in Tarot deck, unnumbered as 0. It is a beginning of a new cycle, which means the discovery of talents, abilities, of optimism and happiness, with a new door opening towards the new opportunities. We are faced to important choices and decision needs to be made as we starts this new life cycle and to deal to challenges along the way. With this card, we must make our right choices with faith in our abilities, and to walk our own unique path with optimism and hope. -copied-

You can always refer to google website. ^.^

Here is one of the link : http://www.biddytarot.com/card.php?id=4&name=Fool

When you get this card, the first thought maybe: Are you fooling me?! =[

Hey hey, the fool is representing a fresh start of new adventure. Look at the picture of the card, he is carrying a bag with a dog next to him, walking under a sun... WAIT! There is klippe! Do not worry, it means the difficult challenges that you might have to deal with along the way towards the new beginning. It is not a bad card as you get it in upfront side, which means positive outcome will be achieved in this new life cycle with faith and hope.

THE FOOL?! Stupid person?! NO! He has knowledge and experience but he chooses to start new journey to gain NEW knowledge. He just act as a stupid, ZERO! He always wanted to do everything with freedom, he does not play with power, and he has the dream and enthusiasm.

So, lets be a fool! hehe =]

FIR - 让爱重生

2011-06-25T14:34:00.002+08:00

歌词

不想哭却又哭出声

不想听除了心破碎声

不应该让眼泪继续拉扯

答应过的会好好的

*这一次决定放手了

这一次我们终于懂了

爱到用尽力气都是挫折

我想留的留不住了

幻灭后该怎么抉择*

#分开的故事写满了不舍

说好的爱情没有你怎么完成

明天的故事深藏好心疼

爱过的恋人展开各自的旅程

一个人让爱重生#

repeat * #

经过多少波折背负沉重苛责

无缘由的爱着

repeat #

wow.... 让爱重生

"Whoever loved and separated, tasted the pain and lives stronger ever after.

Love is such a beautiful feeling, love is fairy tale, love is when you believe it.

Shall let go of the hurts and pains, believe in your belief. Everything will be fine!

擦干眼泪，藏好心疼。一个人，让爱重生!"

鱼跃在花见

2011-06-22T23:52:00.008+08:00

"鱼跃在花见" It is a funny and inspire drama, so what is it talking about? Please watch it yourself! I am falling in love with this drama, especially the lovely couple, 畸型&孖姜! <3

Share some lovely pictures here....

This is the screen where 畸型 confess his love to 孖姜. It is so sweet and SWEET! =p

This one ler... is the last screen of the drama, is my favourite shoot of the drama, where 孖姜 is wearing the wedding gown and waiting for 畸型.... and played together with a touch song, Wonderland - Susan Barth. Sorry that you would not be able to find this song in youtube! but I downloaded it from somewhere..... Dont worry as I will share it through here, please find it in my 'player' below.. Hope you will enjoy with this song! =]

June 2011

2011-06-19T05:25:00.003+08:00

1 June 2011

时间可以说真的过得太快了吧？六月份了，我的生日就快要到了，那又怎样？

这一段时间，试图跳出这框框，让自己能够看得更清楚。不要做当局者迷。看见了什么？还是一团乱，不知道自己到底身在何处。给了eve那么多的劝告，最后自己却一个也没用上。真笨！不过有一样可以肯定的，那就是自己清醒了很多。

其实，我不再期待些什么。只想找回那最纯的感觉和动力。有点难度，我知道啊，要不然这几年我就不会过得如此不堪。

有时候，在想自己为何如此执着，就是不能放下原则，接受事实和现实。我告诉朋友说，我选择相信童话故事。就算这世界再冷漠和残酷，我依然相信会有那么一天......有希望是好的。但愿我身边每个朋友都能开心和幸福。

累了，是时候入梦了！^.^ 2.18am

2 June 2011

今天兴致勃勃就去看了 "Kung Fu Panda 2"。这是一部很值得看的卡通片，而且我们还是在 GSC Signature 看咧。Inner Peace，真的有这样的东东吗？

轻松地走了一个下午。不要迫我冷水吧，我依然相信童话的！

继续加油，快要考试了。都24岁了，还要进考场..... =.="" 1.25am

19 June 2011

Such a long long time never been to Neway from night until morning, 11pm-4.30am

Monday I will be going for interview and I hope I make a right decision and get a good job!

Time to bed! =] 5.25am

happy birthday to me

2011-06-04T02:34:00.000+08:00

An ad hoc birthday cake.. Thanks ^.^

Wish we pass our exams, stay healthy and happy, stay cool and pretty, and every dream comes true ^.^

Happy birthday to me, 24 years old!

Resolution 2011 - part 2

2011-05-24T02:18:00.002+08:00

Now is already May, its more than 1/3 of a year and now I only think of my resolution for 2011!!

Chatting with friend on facebook now, talking about keep fit, exercise and swimming. LOL it reminds me about my resolution 2011 and therefore I am here now, working hard on typing out.............

1. my job = IA, I am waiting for call~ Hopefully I can get intp the company!

2. travelling.... hrm.... I am not planning to travel anywhere for this year as I am broke and got no time. Maybe as if I could get offer for IA job, I could travel around, I wish it is Africa!

3. swimming! ChianLin, you better learn it with your heart, no more delay please!

4. Lomo camera, as suggested, Holga or Diana...

5. Clean my room !!!!! =.= probably after my exam... hehe >.<

Okai, I think it is enough for this year already.

Continue chatting session and my study for EXAM!!! Aja~

SG trip day 4

2011-05-19T23:44:00.003+08:00

Its Saturday, do not have a nice sleep at all. Plan to go Sentosa or perhaps underwater world. However, the HOT weather forced to cancel the plan and we stay in casino instead.

After some hours we back to hostel and take a nap. At night, I accompany Elaine to Marina Bay Sand. Wrongly taken the bus and we have to walk for some distance to reach there. Tired and hot but enjoyed!

After all we separate for own program. On the way back to hostel, I walk around chinatown and nothing could make me stay there for long and so I back to hostel, take a shower and online. Last night in here and I feel really very tired but I sleep at around 4am. =.=

SG Day Three

2011-05-08T01:37:00.003+08:00

Wake up early in the morning and prepare for Zoo trip today. I am not really interesting on this actually, however, just to fill up my time. The entrance fee is SGD 27, including ride and boating. What the.... it is so expensive and it took hours to finish the whole zoo. Anyway, I take few photos as memory.

My story is getting shorter and shorter because I am tiring of walking, MRT-ing.... and boring. Perhaps I lost my patience.

SG Day Two

2011-05-06T21:50:00.005+08:00

Wake up early in the morning and grab some bread as breakfast then I continue my sleep. This trip is just easy and go as I do not plan to go anywhere. After my lunch I feel very headache and take a short nap before I go and meet siew ling in CityHall. I ask her to bring me for japanese food as our dinner. We order a big set for two pax, total SGD57.70. Nice and full.

After dinner, we walk to Clarke Quay and sit there for a short rest. Its a river and with alot bars and pubs. I do not want to have any drink session in Singapore because lack of cash. After that we take a bus and go to Marina Bay. We take some photos as well. There is a big bowl behind the mall. You can hear clearly what is the people talking as long as they are standing near to the big bowl. Physic theory which I do not understand very much. Anyway I make a wish by throwing a coin into it. They say if your coin drop into the hole of big bowl and your wish will come true. A coin with wishes.

We sit on the stairs and enjoy the view of Marina Bay. We talk for a while about everything, career, money, family and love. These weeks I keep myself busy going out with works, tea, drink, play, movie, trips. I really feel tired of myself. I have to find a clear direction or maybe target to motivate my soul! LOL...

SG Day One

2011-05-04T23:49:00.009+08:00

Here, Singapore. I took a flight with Elaine at 12pm without any hotel booking. Half an hour of MRT we reach China Town and we found our hostel named Beary Good. It is much more better than what I have expected. 13 beds mixed dorm and I have mine on top left. My wish comes true, that I have Wifi all the time in hostel, so that I can what's app and facebook. Now, I can blogging as well. Thanks God!

5pm officially checked in and continue to search for another hostel for Friday and Saturday nights. 2 hours effort, Siew Ling, get to book a female mix dorm in Backpacker Inn hostel, where it is located behind my current hostel. Thanks so much for her!

8pm, I do my first time alone backpack. I went to harbour front with my lumix camera. Okai, here I saw the star cruise - Virgo. First time of my life, it is so huge and TITANIC feel. I wish I could stand on it and yell : I am king of the world! ^.^ I able to find the place and stand closer to it. Of course I took a photo with it.

9.30pm, I reach my hostel and I take a bath then continue surf net and whats app. A happy day! Now I am watching Fast & Furious 4 with some guai lou here..... =.= Guai mui said good night to me.

During the journey to Harbour Front, I just feel like do not have any high mood but I am enjoying it. I saw a parent with a little girl sitting in MRT happily and I get a shoot of a them. Sorry that I cant upload here as this is not my laptop. Quietly, I am searching and looking for true love... with my eyes. Happy that I did it! ^.^ The time now is 1.09am and I could not get into bed yet because my sweetheart is bathing and I miss him.. a little bit... Today, I pass by Bugis station - ibis hotel. Sigh, nothing can turn the time back. Move on! =]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1gewTWM6fH0 This is the mood of tonight! First of May~~ Dont ask me why, but time has passed us by~~ my love will never die~~ woohoo~~ do do do do do..... Lets enjoy the song together.... ^.^

Dont Go Breaking My Heart

2011-05-03T19:07:00.006+08:00

This movie is about, yea sure you know it, its all about love. A MARS vs Earth guy movie. ^.^ I only have the chance to watch it through youtube, sad as cinema is no longer available for this movie. I think gals should watch it although the story does not make logical sense in this reality world. Somehow, in my heart, I believe there is true love like this in somewhere and I wish I could have a chance to see the true love!

Today I saw a video posted in FB, it is a short and meaningful story presented by HK artist.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=435604707887&oid=151523654862808&comments

I like the balls in the story, plastic ball where there is a chess inside of it and each ball represents different emotions : Happy, sorrow, love, hate, wealth, vanity and time.

Today is a tired working day and I havent prepare anything for my tomorrow Singapore trip as well. What is your wish for this trip? I wish I could have WiFi and nice sleep all the days.

Malacca day trip

2011-05-02T02:35:00.004+08:00

This music sounds familiar right? ^.^ Yeah, My heart will go on, you are right! Played by an old man, in front of.... -->

Malacca is having 20% of Malaysia population for today, based on our illogical estimation. Just to show you how crowded is in Malacca as we drove for 3 hours from Kuala Lumpur to reach Malacca, yet to Malacca city center.

We bought 4.50pm movie in Mahkota Parada GSC but we late for almost an hour and only able to watch the second half movie. Anyway, at least we could sit down and rest for a while.

A tiring day trip with heavy traffic jam but with joys and fun as well.

P/S: no more day trip during public holiday anymore.

Now and Forever

2011-04-30T22:50:00.003+08:00

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage

in my head

You make sense of madness when my sanity

hangs by a thread

I lose my way but still you seam to understand

Now and forever

I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you

Too caught up in me to see

I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given

to me

I'll try to show you each and every way I can

Now and forever

I will be you man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure

That I won't be alone anymore

If I'd only known you were there all the time

All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the

sand

Now and forever

I will be your man

I knew this day would be a long long day for me. Okay, I accept the fact already and I am FACING it by my own... tears and smile.

Wake up in the early morning, perhaps, I never fall asleep for the whole night. This afternoon my friend is going to perform her singing in a so called "cultural" day event.

The uploaded video is sang by the first performer, his name is Ernest. He had a sore throat for this day but he performed very well. I just in time to capture a short video for his singing performance. Nice voice, nice song. The sentence is playing non stop in my head - Now and forever, I will be your man.......

Saturday is Couples' day. Sweet and happy moments for every one of them. I wish my sweetheart will meet her MARS guy soon and not EARTH guy anymore. ^.^ How about me? Hrm, sorry... I am a MARS girl. Wahahaha.. Elaine, please dont titter on me when you read this! =p

9 April 2011

2011-04-10T03:36:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night went for movie at Tropicana City Mall, guess what?! I do not feel any happy and just hope can leave there as fast as I could.

Out for whole day and lay on bed now, I feel cold and need some warmth but where I can get it? I did not cry, I am proud of myself for this. No matter how hard is it, I believe I would not able to heal my broken heart anymore. So I do not want any love anymore and I just want family and friends....

Dear my sweetheart, thanks for accompany me all the time. Luckily I have you at this moment. I will pray for you too that your MARS guy will appear soon and bring alot of happiness to you. Then, live happily ever after! muaxxx

Dear god, wish I could recover as fast as I can and would not feel any heart pain after this. Simple and easy life for me please! =]

恋人未满

2011-03-17T22:57:00.002+08:00

今天我想念这首歌，恋人未满。最近认识一个朋友，他和那个好朋友很像，说话的神情。这不仅让我怀念起以前的日子。恋人未满，是我和那个好朋友的歌，那时他说好以后听到这首歌都会想起我。

我很坏，这时候我竟在如果。如果那时候的他没有女朋友，也许我们会是幸福的一对。或许罢了。因为他教我重新对爱情恢复期望的，只不过现在又被伤了，已无药可救了。

不过那些美丽的回忆，就是我现在的止痛药，虽然只是暂时性。

希望不快乐的日子快点走。

Detective Conan

2011-03-02T19:02:00.005+08:00

Falling in love with Detective Conan anime. Not need to talk much here and everyone of us sure know about this cartoon. Anyway, I would like to give little introduction here.

Detective Conan (名探偵コナン Meitantei Konan ) is written and illustrated by Gosho Aoyama since 1994. You can refer to this link --> http://www.detectiveconanworld.com/wiki/Detective_Conan

As usual, which character do you like most?

Shinichi Kudo, Conan Edogawa, Ran Mouri, Ayumi Yoshida, Mitsuhiko Tsuburaya, Genta Kojima, Ai Haibara....etc

The character that I love most is.............. AI HAIBARA!

Why? hrm..... I like her style: calm, stubborn and smart. I feel loneliness inside her heart but she never show her sorrow or fear. Moreover, she done everything in her own way and she is a useful weapon of Conan.

This is really an interesting and romantic anime! Enjoy it~

1 March 2011

2011-03-01T20:34:00.003+08:00

Today read a friend's blog, or should be facebook + hometown's friend. This blog make me think of something that deep hidden in my heart. During the journey back from office to my home, everything of my past just fly around my mind. What've I did for these years? Finally I got my answer. I lost my feeling of love, a pure and true feeling that can make me feel content and full of motivation. I lost this feeling after that year....... I cant find it back no matter how hard I try to.

I'm lost.........

I cant ask for help and this is my own life. No one is responsible for my past.

I'm floating for all the time. Today I know that I am waiting for someone who is true and willing to be with me.... forever and ever.

Time could not turn back and I should stand up to change my life from now on.

Resolution 2011 - part 1

2011-01-13T22:32:00.003+08:00

13 days after the new year has begun.....

I make my proposal for resolution.

1: find a better exposure and pay job (IA, EA, AA .. which one should I choose? thinking still...) Or perhaps I should go Singapore to get a double paid job. (1SGD = 2.4MYR ?!)

2: travel again to a far place (my first choice:UK), to reach my dream country - ROME with my one and only love.. (it is impossible to realize my dream in this year)

3: ......

temporary.... I could only think of two out of five now.....

TBC----->>>>>

2011 new year (1)

2011-01-03T00:47:00.002+08:00

New year begins.... 2011, say bye to 2010.

This blog accompanied me since 2009, two years ago. The most hardest year to me, 2009 and what have I gone through and done to stand up............ I praise myself : CL, you did a good job because you made a right decision to leave him. I scold myself as well: CL, but you made a wrong way to forget about him.

2009... and then 2010...... 2010 is better than 2009, 2009 is better than 2008. So 2011 should be, NO, must be better than 2010!!

2011, think of 2009? not 2010?

Start from today, I will think of 2010. Today 3 Jan 2011, what I did in 3 Jan 2010? This is the sequence.........

2011, it is a new year and totally fresh for me. I would need to act like an adult for my future. No more childish, although I am in fact. I have to think and make a decision for my job and my home~~~~~ Hoping god is with me. No more problems for me especially in love.... I am not good in handling my mood. Please =|

New year = new resolution! what is mine? I really havent think about it.... Need some days to do it....

-TBC-

19 Dec 2010

2010-12-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

曾经为爱傻，为爱疯，为爱真，为爱伤。到最后才发现，我真的累了。我竟不敢再去想，也不想再去理会，无论接下来是什么结局，我竟不再有任何感觉。是我变了。我曾以为我可以，但最后才发现我不曾付出和努力。哭了，哭到不再有眼泪，累了。是爱，还是爱过了？

但是我知道我已无能为力了。伤过的原来我不曾痊愈。你所谓的未来，原来我也看不见。是我自私，原以为把你留在身边会把我的寂寞带走。

今晚，我呆在厅里，不断地重复同样的一首歌。她说。

伤之时

2010-09-05T14:20:00.003+08:00

当那天的黑云已飘走了以后，和自己发誓不再落掉任何一滴眼泪，不为任何人。有篇文章说，爱你的人不会让你流泪。其实，到底爱存在吗？还是只是成了一种习惯，一种孤单陪伴？不去猜测，不去猜托。因为，实在是想得太多了。胡思乱想地打乱了自己原本的脚步，迷失了存在的方向。今天这一滴眼泪，或许，被埋没了。它落下的价值，也许，漫长的时间才能被珍视。

如果，这时候不再有如果。心底里，过去的那深处里，早已被挖空了。希望现在以后的期待能够填满，是否会落空？爱上了，快乐以后，伤心也就会跟着在后。闭上眼睛，逃避一切，很难。原来，爱是会嫉妒，介意和占有欲，

希望，失望，但决不是绝望。也许，过去的一切伤痕累累，就算痊愈了，也会有泪和累的时候。期待，期盼和等待，你的那一天，明白我的那一天。

祝福每一对情侣都能心如所愿，天长地久。

爱之时

2010-08-31T23:53:00.003+08:00

每个人都会经历甜涩的爱情，每一段爱都总有它感人的故事。当伤悲过去之际，心里总渴望老天的眷顾，希望奇迹会发生在自己的身上。

天使跃过彩虹，在蓝天的某个角落里;星星闪烁,在无边无际的黑夜里。我们终究会看见幸福的星光吗？

学不会放手最痛的，最后心碎了满地，眼泪落掉了满脸。

爱，欠缺了什么？真心的珍惜，珍惜握紧最爱的。是你。

没有人知道，幸福的彩虹几时会出现，而我们又否及时抓得住。苦涩的滋味，我们都尝过，也烙印在味觉里。

无人预测得到的未来，让焦虑与不安成了停歇的借口。

流星划过天际的海洋，坠落在心里的空洞。悬挂在胸前的碎心，成了拼图，最后的那一片终于完成了。

就算不明的前景，也不要放弃。

girlss

2010-06-27T19:19:00.006+08:00

kitty

SPY & Sharon

Jess

Xinci

Eve

Victoria

Elaine

Colleen & Abbie

my birthday 2010

2010-06-06T01:36:00.004+08:00

4 June 2010, a tiring working day but followed by my birthday celebration at night. ^.^

Its traffic jam everywhere at night time and wondering what is happening.... and we late for dinner with super hyper empty stomach - HUNGRY! We reach our dinner place - Rakuzen at around 9pm......

After dinner, continue with singing session in Redbox @ the Garden with shany and leiling until 3am. Then, DT session in OldTown @ yulek until 5.30am. With a simply bath, we continue the journey to KLIA and reach back to KL at 10am. A night with sleepless! Tired but Happy! ^.^

A birthday present from Mr Blackjack - love-shaped necklace!

" Charles & Keith" - our name!

Another present from Mr Blackjack

(Please dont spend too much on me anymore! I really dont need anything, your true heart is enough for me okay! ^.^ )

Personally, I like this photo very much as I look just nice enough without FAT face in it!

THANKS to Mr Blackjack for spending a whole night time with me for my birthday celebration. Nothing much I can say but 3 words : I Love You! muaxxx =p

Everything is just happened nice and fine for me. It is fast in term of time and everyone seems worry about me especially my family and amp b..... I'm sorry but I would take time to show that I grew up with stronger thinking and emotional.... EQ! ^.^ I trust deeply in my belief and faith always.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY once more for myself! ChianLin, you are growing older by one year again, please take care of your health and everything.....!!! I will.....

爱，很难

2010-05-16T23:46:00.004+08:00

眼泪的不停止终究输给了时间受不住无止的伤害

不安的感觉一步一步走近爱就一步一步走远

结束后的每晚思念的守护习惯了一个人的孤单等待

幸福的期待依然一定会找到最初的爱

爱情真的很难但总会有真情的存在

birthdaysss

2010-05-01T00:15:00.003+08:00

Why the birthday has such a lot of SSS.....??? Yie, there are 3 birthday monkeysss in this month of April...

Kevin 4-4-2010

Steven 24-4-2010

Mc 25-4-2010

To my lovely brothers,

Happy birthday to you all! We are always one big family, never die never end!

Its a sing k night in Greenbox... Finally we make it! Although its tiring, we are enjoying with heartz...

A steamboat night with sweating and touching.... Laugh, play, eat, watch! FULL....

我不怕

2010-04-15T05:36:00.001+08:00

風要我迅速撤離
它要我離開你
它要我成全你們在一起
重傷的愛情凝不成淚滴
無語嗯

風曾帶我到天際
在那裡遇見你
主宰的你掌握一切魔力
剎那間我從雲端墜落到無靠無依

風看過愛的叱吒
也見過我的崩塌好傷

你背叛你的牽掛
我以為我會害怕我不怕

風要我把你放下
別讓恨變成代價算了吧
你讓我一夜長大見識到人性真假
想說的話找不到人說話
風靜靜吹著我的心成流沙

断了的眼镜

2010-03-26T03:40:00.001+08:00

最初的第一天，失去了它。我的不习惯，搞得心情也差了。

硬撑下去。

日子过去了.......竟习惯了它的不存在。那划过的痕迹也渐渐变淡了。

可是，我依然需要它............ 我的-断了的眼镜。

幸福没那么容易

2010-03-26T03:24:00.002+08:00

一首动人心玄的曲子

拉开心底深处的故事

无时无刻都在耳边环绕

累了就放空自己放下困扰

自己做决定不需要依靠

轰轰烈烈不如平静

平静不如安静安宁

14-16

2009-12-11T11:29:00.000+08:00

还有3天，不要偷懒了，加油！

-属于-

2009-12-02T00:44:00.004+08:00

-属于-

走在曾走过的路经上，抬头，那天空依如平常。

空气味，属于从前现在永远，都不变。

风轻轻地掠过，拨开了凌乱的头发。

深呼吸，一口一口地吞下，一样的频率。

记得，忘不掉。

叽叽喳喳的小鸟，挥着翅膀，旋转在空中。

属于这大地的，淹没了，属于我心口间的。

划过的脚印，烙印在大脑里的神经线上，不能剪。

不絮不乱，一脚一步地，起伏的心跳。

忆起，期待，过程，结果。

跨过阶梯，跳过泥坑，钻过篱洞，走过来。

思念起这路上的故事，编织了一连串的感动回忆。

纪念，属于每一个人的微笑，值得。

阳光，温煦，暖和雨后的冻。

回头瞻望，被遗留的早已消失了。

属于你我的，放下了执著。

往前探索，霍然，最美丽的远在身边。

life begins with an end

in heart, the memory last forever

never forget smiles

never remember cries

the stories belong to us, tellable

past or future, fade away or faintness

loveliness

reside

now

2010 的梦

2009-11-21T18:54:00.004+08:00

自己的"dreamz-2010"。

1.台湾！我要去台湾shopping！
- 衣服
- boot，球鞋
- 面膜，护肤品
- pendrive
- handphone
- 可乐
- (还没想到..........)

2.新相机 - nikon D3000 (超级贵....)

3.不用考ACCA!!! (发梦....)

4.减肥 (遥远的梦想.......加油！)

5.学会游泳

傻大姐说：你是时候把脑袋里的大便清理干净了！

所谓的梦想，就是梦而已，能否成真就要看自己的努力和造化了。说到好像老人家的语气，看破红尘似的。不要傻啦！好好找份工，然后存钱！

要找怎样的工？account, finance, audit? commercial or accounting firm?其实，心里早就有个谱了。account, accounting/audit firm! 只是，不知哪些firm在请人。不要再装大便了！ACCOUNT ASSISTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 这一次，不好再改变主意了，受不了了啦！！！！！！！

情深深雨蒙蒙

2009-11-15T18:04:00.005+08:00

不记得是多少年前的戏了，大概是中学的时候。今天懒洋洋的，突然想起这首歌- 〈情深深雨蒙蒙〉，就开了pps看这部连戏剧。这部戏是来自于琼瑶的作品-〈烟雨蒙蒙〉，故事或许对现代的人说：老土，长气.....却是很有意思的故事。

陆依萍-一个有骨气的女孩，带着对爸爸的仇恨，和妈妈相依为命。活在战争的时代，上海舞厅的生活。重感情，讲义气，敢爱敢恨。充满了感动和愤怒的情节故事，看了让人又哭又气。记得，那时sling看得哭到不行。

＜情深深.雨蒙蒙＞

情深深.雨蒙蒙

多少楼台烟雨中

记得当初,你侬我侬

车如流水马如龙

尽管狂风平地起

美人如玉剑如红

情深深,雨蒙蒙

世界只在你眼中

相逢不晚,为何匆匆

山山水水几万重

一曲高歌千行泪

情在回肠荡气中

情深深,雨蒙蒙

天也无尽无穷

高楼望断,情有独钟

盼过春夏秋冬

盼来盼去盼不尽

天涯何处是归鸿

Gemini

2009-11-12T22:24:00.006+08:00

<双子座的由来>
　　

斯巴达国王的妃子丽达十分美丽，宙斯因为垂涎丽达的美色，化身成天鹅亲近她。丽达因而为宙斯生下了一对双胞胎，男的取名为波里德凯斯，女的取名为海伦，也就是那位倾国倾城，后来引发特洛伊战争的超级大美女。

丽达和斯巴达国王生有一子，叫卡斯特，卡斯特及波里德凯斯两兄弟，从小感情就非常好。俩人为同母异父的兄弟，波里德凯斯的身份是“神”，且有永恒的生命，卡斯特则是一般的普通人。

希腊起了内乱，在混战之中，有人拿长矛刺向波里德凯斯，卡斯特为了保护波里德凯斯，奋勇扑上，挡在波里德凯斯的身前。结果，卡斯特被杀死，波里德凯斯痛不欲生。　　

波里德凯斯无法接受卡斯特已经死亡。波里德凯斯回到天上向父亲宙斯许愿，愿意以自己的生命换回兄长的性命，宙斯怜悯波里德凯斯的手足情深，便将波里德凯斯的寿命分一半给卡斯特，并准许他们两人住在天国和死亡之国，二人从此形影不离。

台湾!!

2009-11-02T12:32:00.005+08:00

台湾

面积: 36,000 平方公里
人口: 约2300万人
人民: 汉人、原住民
语言: 普通话/台语(闽南话)/客家话/原住民各族族语
宗教: 佛教/道教/基督教/天主教/回教
总统: 马英九
执政党: 中国国民党

台湾气候

大体而言，台湾全年温暖，四季中以春冬的变化较大，夏秋变化较小，有着最适合旅游的天气，年平均温度约为22度，平均最低温不过12-17度（ 54- 63 ℉ ），所以这里的冬天看不到霭霭白雪，只有在少数的高山地区，可以一瞥雪花的影子。在春夏之交时（每年的时3月-5月），偶受滞留锋面徘徊影响，有着细雨绵绵的天气型态，此到访台湾，要记得随身带把雨伞，因为漫步雨间虽然浪漫，但是你可不想带着湿淋淋的身体旅行。台湾的夏天（每年的6月-8月），偶尔会有台风经过，请你留意气象报导，因为台风天所造成海边波涛汹涌的海浪，绝对不是观赏奇景的好时机。在秋天的台湾（约每年的9月-10月），你则可以纵情于天天的晴朗凉爽里。台湾短暂而温暖的冬天（每年的11月-2月），是赏枫的季节，偶尔来袭的寒流，是泡汤族的最爱。

桃园机场和高雄小港机场是台湾岛内比较成熟的国际机场

台湾桃园国际机场位于台湾桃园县大园乡，距台北市40公里。台湾桃园机场是台北市主要的国际机场与北台湾主要的国际货运机场，是台湾最大与最繁忙的机场。

高雄国际机场位于高雄市南侧的小港区，仅次于台湾桃园国际机场。

http://view.taiwan.net.tw/

http://www.elong.com/travel/zhongguo/taiwan.html

YC年尾去台湾玩，joebao也是....我也要去！不过，没钱.......
明年3月，euro trip...jess，除非我突然发达，不然我是绝对不可能join的....
我要存钱去台湾！自游行.....到处去玩，shopping，拍照.......最少都要一年时间让我存钱....... too much liabilities already.... ^.^

shOpPIng!!!!
eaTT!!!
PlaY!!!

Finally..............MONEY!!!

台北市忠孝东路的太平洋崇光百货
微风广场，京华城
台北市东区的新光三越百货
１０１大楼
士林、饶河街和四平街
台北松山火车站附近的“五分埔”
台北西门町..........................................http://www.51766.com/RegionShoppingOverview/10071/

..................................................................http://travel.network.com.tw/action/formosa/

这一次，就要好好努力做工存钱.......
加油！明年我一定要去台湾！！！！！！！！！

Triangel的故事

2009-10-23T23:26:00.007+08:00

传说中爱神有两支箭，一支金箭，一支银箭，金箭是用来帮助有缘份的人们，而银箭则是专门用来破坏缘份的，于是爱神派出了一个天使来阻止银箭，守护人与人之间的缘份。这个天使就是“爱之神”（Triangel）。

　　
相传在公元前二世纪的古罗马，有一位善良的女孩和她的男朋友相爱，后来男孩被青蛙魔女勾引，魔法使他渐渐地冷落了女孩。女孩整天坐在窗前哭泣，真情最终感动了上苍，天上的众神令仙鹤叼着这个玩偶——爱之神，放在她的床前，青蛙魔女终于露出原形逃走了，男孩又重新回到女孩的身边。

无聊地和eve谈了一整晚。谈得累了，两个闷到谈triangel，然后开始搜索资料。12.28am，我们都饿了。
我要吃chocolate!

I'm sorry....

给你的话

2009-09-27T20:05:00.003+08:00

这我才知道lavender的花语-期待爱情。不知道为什么，我就是很喜欢这花，可能是因为紫色，还有它的魅力。

看了你写的lavender，我感动到流眼泪了啦。

文字就是一种力量。我发觉我都不曾亲口在你们面前说过我真实的感受，快乐和伤心。每一次都是用文字，用写的。而这里就是我们的天堂了....怀念我们一起读书，做assignment的时候。

我们之间的感情深层了很多。他们快要回来了，其实，我害怕也担心。你知道我担心些什么，或许一切都会变回以前那样，安然无事就最好。而说真的，joebao是我的...可以说是一辈子的恩人，没有他今天的我一定很糟糕。我知道他对你说过的话很过分，我也生气他。但是，他一辈子都会是我的好朋友。你也是我一辈子的好姐妹！！你们每一个都是我最好最好的家人。不知道为什么，远距离拉不开我们之间的心。我能感受到你，所以就算我一个人我也觉得很温暖。

你会幸福的。试着打开你的心锁，再苦的日子都会过去的。不要让那幸福溜走！

1月28日黑色白楊木 (! Black Poplar)花語 : 勇氣花占卜 : 您是個非常有勇氣的人，堅持自己的理想，不易受人影響。在旁人眼中，您是個固執己見的人，專橫獨行，對您總是七分尊敬，三分遠離。您應學會尊重別人，集思廣益，將您的長處發揮出來。花箴言 : 不要老是想做眾人的主角，事實上您就是自己一生中的主角。

6月4日淡紅玫瑰 (Damask Rose)花語 ﹕明豔照人花占卜 ﹕您是一個喜歡打扮的人，無論何時都會保持容光煥發、心境開朗，您對朋友熱情慷慨，很有義氣。為了挑戰自己，會不斷地改變環境。戀愛方面比較任性，只要是對上了，您會不顧一切地愛對方。花箴言 ﹕沒有愛情的婚姻如同一張沒有顏色的廢紙。

10月28日木槿 (Rose of Sharon)花語 ﹕纖細之美花占卜 ﹕您是極具時代感的新潮人物，膽大與心細並存，反叛中混合著對人的體諒，正是因為您這種多方面的性格，如磁石般吸引了人們的注意力，任何人都無法抗拒您的魅力。但您不要過於自戀，並學會拒絕別人。花箴言 ﹕您就是您，不要盲目依從別人。

说不出的准。不过，我不是很喜欢玫瑰.......=(

享受这里的音乐。way back into love - 它会是你的心灵解药。留意它的歌词。

我知道他会是那个明白你爱你的人，不再让你受伤的人。时间，时间是你的需要。让一切完全平静了下来，再为自己做个结论吧。I'll be here for you.......

一个故事

2009-09-26T05:50:00.001+08:00

这个女孩，喜欢站在阳台遥望辽阔的黑夜。

这个爱哭的女孩，流下了眼泪，因为看不见月亮和星星。

这个没用的女孩，累了，也笑了。

这个女孩很奇怪，没有人能够了解她。

这个女孩，喜欢一个人逛书局。

这个女孩，喜欢一人驾车，在高速公路上，抱着暖暖的枕头，听着动人的旋律。

这个女孩，期盼能够和朋友到山顶看夜景，静静地聊天。

这个脾气不好的女孩，却很喜欢小孩子。

这个不会照顾人的女孩，曾经很渴望有弟弟或妹妹。

这个不敢爱的女孩，却渴望未来能拥有自己的小家庭。

这个女孩，喜欢夜晚的宁静。

这个女孩，期待天亮的一刻。

这个女孩，跌过，爬起来，再跌过，爬不起来，累，想飞！

这个怕肥的女孩，爱吃冰淇淋，mcflurry oreo。

这个小胆的女孩，很喜欢看vampire，听鬼故事。

这个女孩喜欢一个女孩......hebe。

这个复杂的女孩，想回到当初的简单。

这个女孩喜欢付出的感觉，因为证明她的存在。

这个女孩，喜欢发呆，放空。

这个爱看戏的女孩，也很爱唱歌。

这个女孩，其实很坏，坏到不行，坏到没人有。

这个女孩，享受每一分每一秒，因为她知道活在这世上的日子不长。

这个女孩有着一岁大的儿子，他住在新疆。

这个女孩超矛盾的。

这个女孩，吃橙不喝橙汁，喝萝卜不吃萝卜，不吃辣却爱吃咖哩。

这个女孩就是这样，所以很烦人。

这个爱逃避问题的女孩，有天终于被骂惨了。

这个女孩喜欢一个人。

这个女孩很摇晃，总是不知所措。

这个男子性格的女孩，怕高又怕痛。

这个女孩，寻找着无牵无挂的日子，自由的天空。

这个女孩好羡慕正在罗马旅行的朋友，她梦想的天堂。

这个女孩经常被骂。

这个女孩不见了........她的灵魂。

Add on
这个女孩，有一个小康之家，也有一个大家庭。

这个女孩，最喜欢烦恼他们。

这个女孩觉得很感动，因为他们的关怀。

这个女孩衷心祝福，每一个的他们都能够幸福快乐，充满欢乐。

还记得这女孩曾说过，她会努力不放弃，如果她的幸福会带给他们快乐。

这个女孩，想说对不起，谢谢。

这个女孩答应他们，会好好照顾自己。

这个女孩累了，想睡了。

晚安！

忙碌的几天

2009-09-22T04:24:00.001+08:00

我想我大概要生病了，不过又不是很病，就是伤风咯....然后，今天胃痛了3次......糟糕.....感觉到有点不对劲.....不敢再和妈妈说我胃痛了...肯定会被骂得=='''''，也不想要妈咪担心......我真的很弱，身体弱....整天感觉呼吸困难，心又会隐隐痛......

这几天，真的好累......不过，累得充实开心.....表姐的婚礼，好热闹。我们刘家有好多年没像这样聚在一次玩了.....大概有7年了，自从外公去世以后，这家好久没这样热闹过了....要是外公还在那多好，外公一定很开心，四代同堂........想念外公.........想念外公的板厂.........想念大家都在一起的时候...........婚宴，我想最吵的那一桌就是我和大姨，表哥那桌咯............toaster的时候，最大声，最长气的又是我们........我们最爱玩的就是，喝红酒，然后和隔壁桌的表哥表姐，舅舅，阿姨敬酒.....我们蛮搞笑的......

累....累得只想抱着我的pillow.......我真的累了，需要好好休息，再继续........

喜欢简单的生活....怀念diploma 1st year的日子....没什么烦恼，除了读书......不过，现在的日子也不错啦.......大人的生活，是该适应下的....毕竟是成长过程中必经之路......

记得表姐说，维持一段感情很重要，所以一定要互相了解和明白....对的，开始一段爱情不难，但要如何维持到一辈子才是困难之处.......

祝福表姐和表姐夫，白头偕老，天长地久，永远幸福.......god bless......也祝福你们能够开开心心地过每一天.......

烦恼的一天

2009-08-31T22:43:00.002+08:00

有谁没被伤过？今天一个好友这么告诉我的，说不用担心太多，要勇敢点，努力去争取自己的幸福，不要害怕失败和痛。

以前的事该忘的就忘了吧！这或许是道理，却很多人都做不到。要从新出发，确实需要很大的勇气和力量。要怎么克服，需要时间，不知道要多长的时间，但决不会再放弃了。

刚从关丹回来，累！明天又要去马六甲audit了。闷！不过，也没办法。工作就是人生的一部分，不能逃避，因为要赚钱给爸爸妈妈。真的不是很想待在这间公司工作，经常往外跑，累，压力也大。我的acca也没有时间温习了。怎么办？爸爸姐姐说过换个新工作，可是我又不想半途而废。acca起价了，78pound per paper....我不想浪费钱，想专心读书，可是真的累! 到底该不该换新工作？烦........

梦醒了

2009-08-12T10:39:00.003+08:00

坐在这里，无所事事的，无聊地上网听歌。听着 hebe-梦醒了。一度触动我的心....

我想起你描述梦想天堂的样子
手指着远方画出一栋一栋房子
你傻笑的表情又那么诚实
所有的信任是从那一刻开始

你给我一个到那片天空的地址

只因为太高摔得我血流不止
带着伤口回到当初背叛的城市
唯一收容我的却是自己的影子

昨天的我，创造了今天的我。有过去的故事，让我明白体验的重要。爱情，不只建立在感觉中，也须要配合，沟通和了解，诚实，坦白和信任。不再相爱的时候，放手让自己和他去寻找属于自己的幸福。错过了错的人，是更加靠近对的人。虽然有点安慰自己的意思，但是这也是道理。放下过去，但是不能忘记。过去的经历，是用来提醒以后的错误。

突然又好想去唱k哦....... 超爱唱歌听歌的。^.^

遇见那个让你心动的人就勇敢去追求吧。幸福是要自己努力争取的。

love....=)

2009-08-04T13:39:00.002+08:00

爱情，真的是一个很伤人的东西。当你拥有时，总害怕会失去。当你没有的时候，却很想拥有。矛盾！有人欢喜，有人悲伤。而我站在灰色地带，不想去触碰，更不想再受伤。懦弱！用尽力气来压抑自己，是聪明，还是愚蠢？

最近，身边朋友都不断出现爱情的问题。我，帮不上忙。我只能用自己的感觉拼成字句来告诉他们。我也是个失败者，我也是个过来人。我清楚也明白，不想你们有一天后悔，遗憾，所以拼了命也不想你们放弃。这或许已成了你们的压力。虽如此，只要你们能够开心，我都会支持你们任何的决定。记得要懂得保护自己！

累了。

...也有朋友甜甜蜜蜜地要开始，或刚开始，或已开始他们的爱情故事。羡慕，也希望和祝福他们能够天长地久，永远幸福快乐。

一个人的生活，自由，却也孤单。久了，我也开始适应这种生活了。虽然有的时候，真的会很不开心，大哭，但是心中还是渴望能够寻求真爱。幸福是要自己去争取的，朋友常说。只不过，对爱情的信心还不如从前，所以一直不敢去寻找自己的幸福。是悲观。我知道我错过了许多可能的幸福，但我从不后悔。因为我还在等待那个‘真爱’，是天长地久，那个真正爱我，我也爱他的人。或许，这一生没有机会会遇见了，也不会轻易放弃等待。=）

my little sis, 再不开心，再难过，再痛，再辛苦，都会过去的。只是时间上的问题。我知道你比我坚强，也比我更懂事，所以你会熬过来的。无论，那结果会如何，只希望你选了自己要走的路，开开心心地走下去。我会陪在你身边的，当你需要我的时候，就找我吧。请多多保重，还有加油！爱你........

疲惫.....

2009-07-17T23:10:00.002+08:00

终于完成了第一份工作-马六甲。今天，临走时，突然想哭，我竟觉得不舍得.......原来，人与人之间的感情真的能在不知不觉中培养出来。

这几天，心情又被影响到了。昨晚我竟哭了，眼泪在眼眶里打转。我不敢放声哭。我害怕有一天你会像我一样后悔以前所作的决定，所以用尽所有方法希望你不会放弃。这几天，心痛的感觉又再来了，不知道为什么。haiz....加油吧，只要你们还相爱，所有的问题都能够解决的。我也告诉自己，如果，真的有那么如果的一天，我再次找到能让我心动的那一个人，我不会再像以前那样轻易放弃，也会检讨自己，付出最好的。

好累哦，真得好累，身心疲惫，一闭上眼睛就能睡着了。好久没有试过这种累的感觉了。希望我能赶快找到人生目标，然后努力往前走。god bless... always bless us..... thanks....=)

thanks..... you........

2009-06-27T02:00:00.003+08:00

Suddenly, feel a kind of warm into my heart............ u better becareful..... hehe.... a simple word but it is meaningful for me..... Eve, really a big thankzzz to her too. You both are my angels.

Today, I get my job.... Happy~~~~ thanks to my sweetheart elaine!!!!!!!! thanks god!!!!!

Nothing much to say here..... As what Eve told me, learn to protect..... Look forward, dont look backward........ I'll keep pushing on.......

Eve..... I'm so envy on your photozzz......... That photo..... =(.... I also want it~~~~~~ hehe.... Ok lar, I dont want sot pluck here there already.......... Keep fighting is the most important. Chian Lin, please brave up your heart and look forward. Nothing would defeat you. Gambate~~~~~

God, my lord, please bless all my friends........... please give them a strong heart and mind, protect them, guide them......... =)

self-confident?!

2009-06-26T00:03:00.003+08:00

I'm wondering..... when I start to lose my confident....... for everything. Eve reminds me and I start to observe myself...... It is a bad sign and I'm trying to get over it. Sad......

People always says : time would help you get things right, help you to pass all happenings...... I'm not sure about it. When I try to get away from problems, time would remind me all the days and make me feel unhappy. I try to skip all the problems and get close to things that could make me happy. Simple theory........ I'm not steady enough yet.

Tomorrow I will have a job interview and I feel worry about it. I really hope that I can get the job. My daddy says, everything has passed, so now look forward for your future. I agree on it.

Human is selfish. I met many cases before but I still believe, if you treat anyone with true heart, people could feel it and appreciate it. No need to feel sad for those who dont. Just be yourself........ A nice phrase - just be yourself.........

Wish me good luck for tomorrow.

I'll keep pray for everyone. God bless................

Happy birthday ~~~~

2009-06-05T22:20:00.004+08:00

22 years old..... It is a big number for a girl~~~~ =(

Thanks for my lovely gang for the celebration of my big day.....

My birthday.... This year is my greatest big day celebration but I feel something lost. Ya, because of ACCA. Hate it..... 22 years old, time for me to start a new life, new journey. No more student life........ Stress.......

Birthday wishes.... ShHHhhhhhh... cant tell....... hehe..... Hope my wishes would come true. Amen! hehe...

God bless me and all of you.

傻了，high了!

2009-05-25T22:07:00.002+08:00

突然间，回想起许许多多和他，我的初恋，的故事。听着，不断地，重复地听着，周杰伦-我不配。一年前，分手前，他经常听的一首歌，他的偶像。而今天，我念着，听着，看着歌词，泪也差点流了出来。是我的任性，不懂得珍惜，最后坏了事情。或许，放手对他来说是解脱，对我何尝不是？一条绳子拉得太紧，总有累的一天。分开以后，我们彼此多了笑容和空间。

爱了才明白，负荷不来，是一种负担。

他不是一个浪漫的人，但是却很体贴。做了很多令我感动的事。到今天，我依然记得他所做的一切。这一份磨灭不掉的回忆，是这一段感情的礼物。

不是我放不下。我绝对相信没有人可以完完全全放得下，尤其是初恋吧。付出过的感情，是不可能被忘记的，就算是，也只不过是自欺欺人。对吧？

对爱情，是越来越没信心。是害怕会再受伤害。老了，经不起风浪。不过，放心吧，懂我的朋友都知道我是个有原则的人，不会因为挫折而乱了自己。

真的好想唱歌，跳舞。年轻，要玩得开心。傻了！

come and dance with me~~~~~~~~~~

silent night

2009-05-25T01:11:00.002+08:00

I'm wearing the 4-leaf necklace, a sign of -good luck- and hoping it would really bring me some good luck then.

A big and high feel to dance!!

What is my mission for my life?? I have no idea about it. Waiting and thinking......

I have prepared for the worst outcome, always, no matter for what would happen then. It is a life theory. =)

And soon, everything will become a memory and lost in the air.......

God bless~~~

Lavandula....

2009-03-25T15:24:00.000+08:00

I remember there is a HK movie name as <薰衣草>, acted by Kelly Chen.... It is very nice and touch movie. The story is talking about a girl that is living her days without spirited as her beloved has left her forever. Everyday she sends her missing words by flying up an orange balloon into the sky, to the heaven....... Her life is depressed until one day.... there is an angel fall down from the sky onto her garden. The angel live together with her, bring a lot of stories to her. When the heaven door open, the angel flies back to his place and left her.... I do remember he left a pair of boot in the train. This movie quite funny also because Eason Chen and Chao Chao. hehe.....

Lavender.... Lavandula Swiss Italian farm. Lavender field......... http://www.lavandula.com.au/index.php Its so pretty....... =0 =)

I'm imagining that I'm standing in the middle of the lavender field and breathing the fresh air. Wao...... Purple...... my favourite colour...... Wish that I could have the chance to stand on it one day..... God bless....=)

No more tears

2009-03-12T22:04:00.004+08:00

鯊魚與魚 　　

曾有人做過實驗，將一隻最兇猛的鯊魚和一群熱帶魚放在同一個池子，然後用強化玻璃隔開，最初，鯊魚每天不斷衝撞那塊看不到的玻璃，耐何這只是徒勞，它始終不能過到對面去，而實驗人員每天都有放一些鯽魚在池子裡，所以鯊魚也沒缺少獵物，只是它仍想到對面去，想嘗試那美麗的滋味，每天仍是不斷的衝撞那塊玻璃，它試了每個角落，每次都是用盡全力，但每次也總是弄的傷痕纍纍，有好幾次都渾身破裂出血，持續了好一些日子，每當玻璃一出現裂痕，實驗人員馬上加上一塊更厚的玻璃。　　

後來，鯊魚不再衝撞那塊玻璃了，對那些斑斕的熱帶魚也不再在意，好像他們只是牆上會動的壁畫，它開始等著每天固定會出現的鯽魚，然後用他敏捷的本能進行狩獵，好像回到海中不可一世的凶狠霸氣，但這一切只不過是假像罷了，實驗到了最後的階段，實驗人員將玻璃取走，但鯊魚卻沒有反應，每天仍是在固定的區域游著它不但對那些熱帶魚視若無睹，甚至於當那些鯽魚逃到那邊去，他就立刻放棄追逐，說什麼也不願再過去，實驗結束了，實驗人員譏笑它是海裡最懦弱的魚。　　

可是失戀過的人都知道為什麼，它怕痛。

I'm just read this from my mail. Early, I thought it's just a simple story but then the last sentence..... it touches my heart. I understand the pain feel. The pain that make you cant eat well, cant sleep well..... One word can describe it 'SHIT'

No matter how pain, it would pass after some time. But the feel of pain would never be forgotten even it has passed. Why?? After you've tried it then you know. I think most of us have experienced it before.

After yesterday, I start to get crazy again. Basketball...... falling in love in it.

I've been tagged by LIM SOON HENG~~~~

2009-02-28T23:22:00.003+08:00

1. The person who tagged you is....

LIM SOON HENG....

2. Your relationship with him/her is Close Friends?

NOT VERY CLOSE BUT NOT REALLY FAR, MY BEST FREN.... MY LOVELY CLASSMATE.... HEHE....

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her...

FUNNY, STRONG (i know he cried behind us),PLAYFUL, 敢爱敢恨, INDEPENDENCE (coz he never ask me for any helps...) hehe...

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you

SING IN MSN THRU VOICE CLIP (especially when I'm feeling down......)

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you

WHEN I'M HAVING TOOTH GROWTH, HE SAID JIAYOU~~~~

6. If he/she become your lover

IMAGINING.... I THINK HE WOULD BE A SWEET BF..... (coz can ask him sing always...haha)

7. If he/she become your lover, things he/she has to improve on

SELF-CONFIDENCE.... (dun always praise itu wee kang la... hehe)

8. If he/she become your enemy, you

THIS WOULD NOT HAPPEN LA......

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will

NIL....

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is

SING A SONG FOR HIM.... (let go things that u cant keep.... eve said this to me oso)

11. Your overall impression of him/her is

CUTE....

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

38, TALKATIVE, SMART....

13. The characters you love of yourself are

PLAYFUL.... hehe...

14. On the contrary, the characters that you hate about yourself

LACK OF SELF-CONFIDENCE, DUNNO HOW TO COMMUNICATE......

15. The most ideal person you want to be is

SLIM, WHITE, TALL, BIG EYES, LONG N BLACK HAIR.... hehe....

16. For people who care and love you, say something to them.

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. I WILL SHOW MY APPRECIATION, NOT THRU WORDS BUT ACTION... hehe.....

17. Pass this test to 10 persons who you wished to know how they feel about you.

1. LIM SOON HENG (sure tag u back...)

2. WONG SIEW LING (my best best best fren in my life, sure le....)

3. ONG SZE EVE (soon heng, how come u din put da jie tou name???)

4. KENNETH (my dearest brother leh.....)

5. XINCI (my little sister that care me a lot....)

6. ELAINE (my sweetheart ya....)

7. TONG TIN LOONG (okay, dun call u bro.... my best and most naughty fren....)

8. JESSALYN (my dear roommate........ )

9. GAN WEE KANG (My basketball coach....)

10. can leave it blank...?! cant think of others dy..... =p..

( but most of them dunno my blog, how to tag them....)

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?
ERM... SHE IS HAVING A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH ME.... HAHAHA....

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
MALE......

20. If no. 7 and no.10 together, is that a good thing?
ER.... 10 IS BLANKING.....

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
SHE IS WORKING NOW.... IN S'PORE.... MY SIS, GAMBATE~~~ MISS U....

22. When is the last time u had a chat with no. 3
THRU MSN.... I'LL BE SEEING HER 2MR.... HEHE

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
SHE LIKES CLICK FIVE.... I THINK SO.... :p

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
OPS.... I HAVE NO IDEA..... (TELL ME AFTER READ THIS LEH.... HEHE)

25. Will you woo no. 3?
IF I AM A BOY, I WOULD CHASE HER COZ SHE IS MY CUP OF TEA.... HEHE....

26. How about no. 7?
WAO.... HE IS MY BEST BROTHER NEH.... (i know u feel weird of this bro name....) ANYWAY, I DONT THINK I WILL DO SO COZ I AM A GIRL LEH.... HAHAHAHA.... LOUSY ANS I KNOW....

27. Is no. 4 single?
YA, HE IS.... BUT HE HAS HIS TARGETSSSS..... HAHAHA.....

28. What is the surname of no.5?
HUAN XIN CI.....

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?
BLANK AGAIN...

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
EXCELLENT... THEY ARE COUPLE.... WAO....

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
OKAY, SHE IS WORKING NOW....

32. Talk something casually about no. 1
HE IS FUNNY, ALWAYS MAKE FRENS LAUGH. HIS THINKING VERY WEIRD, HE LIKES TO IMAGINE THINGS THAT WE FEEL 'GELI'.... ESPECIALLY HE IMAGINES HE IS KISSING WITH..... (hehe.... i wont type with who la... u should know it....)

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?
NOPE, COZ WE BOTH ARE GALS.....

34. Where does no. 9 live at?
JB....

35. What colour does not.4 like?
HEHE.... I THINK HE LIKES..... ANY COLOUR... (wait u tell me d right ans la....)

36. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?
YUP, WE ARE IN THE SAME GANG....

37. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
HAHA.... I DUN THINK SO.....

38. What is no. 6 doing?
SHE IS STUDYING IN UNI NOW.... BUSYING WITH DEBATE THINGS, ASSIGNMENTS... I THINK SO... HEHE.... (sweetheart, wish u have a big good luck in May.... i'll behind u to give my fully support....)

TAGGED~~~~~

Believe me?! =p =)

2009-02-24T23:18:00.003+08:00

Whenever, wherever, whatever..... You have to work hard on everything you hope to, you want to, you desire to.....

Happiness is created by your own. Nobody would care for you, only you yourself would do so. You try to create happiness for other but people would forget your effort. Unfair. The word unfair is powerful and reality.

Fren advices, "when you say or do things by taking care of other people feeling, dont ever forget to take care your own feeling too as other would not care on your feeling."

Human are selfish. Its true somehow. Their selfish could kill you silently. Even they are good people but they could hurt you. I experienced these hurts many times but I'm still holding a hope that they would realize and change one day later. A hope that makes me feel stress all the time.

I'm not a good people but sure I'm not a bad people. I have tried to do everything based on people expectation. I dont like to make people feel dissappointed but sometimes it happens too.

I trust everyone even being cheated before. I trust every words that everyone told me but then they would ask," you do really trust my words?? I'm just kidding and cheating you for fun." I have heard this sentence for many times but I still believe in later. I'm not stupid. I just have a belief that every people would not tell lie or cheat.

Life should be full of hope. I do feel hopeless always but then I would remind myself, "hopeless will bring sadness so believe it and live as happy as you can." Then, I will smile. hehe.... Smile would bring good luck then. My fren always says so. So I believe and try it. =) =0 =p

Dont too 'degil' on anything as it would make you blind of other stuff. When you open your heart then you will breath in fresh air and see things more clear. I do use this to advice my frens but sometimes I'm the one most 'degil'. Funny..... Say always is easier than action.

Trust me, trust you, trust everyone....... God bless......

Super Down Day for me......

2009-02-17T21:10:00.002+08:00

People always said, " no matter what happened, confront it with smile..." I'm always try to be like this. Smile~~~~ Even laugh~~~~

Night, I have a big big argue with my sis. I try to do everything with positive thinking. I know myself well but others would not understand on me. My sis said, "why you look like unconcernedly all the time??" These words I've heard it for many years and everytime I'll just keep quiet and hide the sadness inside my heart. I know, in this world, nobody would really understand me including my family. I never blame anyone because I dont understand them as well. I dont like to explain, I dont like to show my feelings in words but in action. This time, today, in car, I dont know why I have such a big courage and anger to fight back against my sis's words. " Sis, you think deeply, think longer, I do love you, I do everything for our family but I never say it out. You cant see it??........ When you feel unhappy, you thought I dont feel sad as well?? I try to do things make you happy but I never open my mouth to tell you. It does not mean I dont care at all. I keep every problem inside my heart and never say out because I dont want mom and dad worry on me. You forget what happened on you last time?? When I see mom cried, my heart very pain and I know i cant make mom dissappointed again.

I cry..... with sadness and anger also. I dont know why..... My mood, today, is in such a terrible situation. Bad.... But smile, remember to smile.....

Maybe I should learn to communicate. Learn to show everything in words and actions. But that wasnt me anymore. I dont like to show in words because words would cheat us but actions wont. I hate people who talks but action in another way. I hate it and I dont want become one of them.

Cry cry cry but do remember to smile.

Then, my sis sms me and says sorry to me that she now only realised that I have so much unhappy things hide inside. I've tried to tell my sis everything before but the result is a failure. Then, I reply her with serious tone, "dont worry on me. I handle everything myself then I can be stronger later. Dont tell dad and mom. Sorry for just now."

Cry again.... I am an idiot. I love my family very much. I wanna them live happily without any worries but I'm always the one who let them worry most.

A super hyper damn bad mood day for me. However, keep on going. There will be a way out when you hold tight on it.

Thanks to my best friend. Everytime I feel unhappy, you also stand beside and support me. Arigato!!! hehe..... Tomorrow, you are going back to Australia. Hope you have a safe and happy journey ya. Do cherish people around you so wont feel regret again. Gambate~~~~

Stupid...

2009-02-13T14:26:00.007+08:00

Maybe you would say I'm a weird person. Every song has its story, the lyrics would tell you about it. If you listen it by heart, you would feel it, you would feel the touch of the story. Have you ever cried before when listening to a song?? I did it.

I do very enjoying those songs with touching or meaningful words. I do admire those writers as they able to write out words that could make people cry for it. Two words: 'sai lei'.... hehe.

Yesterday, Tin Loong send me a song, 梁静茹-<属于>, I listened it before. The lyric is powerful, for me lar....

我坚持的都值得坚持吗
我所相信的就是真的吗
如果我敢追求我就敢拥有吗
而如果都算了不要呢

或许吧或许我永远都不要遇见他
或许吧或许我太天真了吧

属于我的昨天之前的结局我决定我的决定
属于我的明天之后的憧憬我迷信我的迷信
属于我们点点滴滴的伤心我们要各自忘记
属于我们闪闪发亮的爱情我们再一起努力

属于风的那就去飞翔吧
属于海洋的那就汹涌的
属于我们的爱该来的就来吧
为什么不敢呢不要呢?

是他吧命中早就注定了的那个他
是他吧他原来就在这里啊

不要害怕，不要恐惧。用心去等待，就算会消失，也要在消失前，努力过，不让遗憾留在心中。朋友们，你们也一样哦，任何事都要用真心去努力，就算失败，也不会有后悔的一天。

Gambate ne, my friends.... God bless us.... Muackss....

My lovely gang in KL.....

2009-02-08T21:51:00.005+08:00

<--- Eve, me and ah heng.... Eve, is my big sister leh. She always make me feel warm and touch.

Eve, Thanks for everything you did when I'm facing the hardest time in college life. I am so lucky to have you as my best sister. hehe....

Soon Heng, named as chicken little in my phonebook leh. He is a cute and funny friend that always make jokes. Ah heng a, say wanna beerz, when ya?? hehe....

Wee Kang, so sorry la... i cant upload ur pic... dunno y... hehe... Wee Kang ar, he is my basketball coach during diploma 1st year. He is a good listener and he likes to act cool la... Anyway, thanks for you and xinci for accompany me always. hehe....

<---- MayDay, our pretty gal gang in class. haha....

top left: Pek Yeen (do things in a super slow speed de, I like to name her as snail... hehe...)

top right: Eve (our leader in MayDay, she in charge in everything. hehe...)

Left: Xin Ci (my little sister that always stand beside me. I still remember she makes me cry when I read her sms.... feel so touch that time.)

Middle: me

Right: Sharon (sharon is the cutest gal in our group leh... She very diam and polite. I like to sing with her coz she has a sweet voice... I do like a song very much after she sings it in Greenbox-好想她好爱她-...)

<--- cool right ??

in between, got a gal (wear spec stand behind Eve) is my ex roommate, Jess..... She likes to catch my secret. We like to chat during midnight time and we could chat till morning time. Then, late for class finally. haha.....

<---- My Ampang gang la...

Vince

Jess (kena blocked by vince dy)

Nic

Kenneth

Nelson

Kevin

Kitty

Kenneth, Nelson and Jess are my classmates also. We've been 'fight' in doing assignment before. We have different characteristics but we are best fren that can play, eat, and chat together.

Every sem break, we would have a small trip to some places, likes PD, A famosa, Malacca, Kuantan, Ulu Langat, Genting.... Next trip is Langkawi, so sad, I cant join... Coz I wanna go Redang with my lovely classmates... hehe....

My best frens in my life...

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This is my best fren - tin loong. Knew him for 4 yrs dy lo... Only can meet him during CNY... hehe...
Thanks leh, my fren~~~ Gambate~~~ Take care urself la....

My best sweet fren - fonglee, we used to call her Rlee... hehe... Knew her for almost 16 yrs dy... long rite ?? since kindergarden till now... hehe....

This is my big big sister - siew ling, I like to call her Butter ling... dunno y... hehe... I'll miss u so much , sling... Thanks for taking care of me all the time.....

This is my sweetheart, elaine.... We always have the same sense. Gonna work hard to keep ur luck ya, sweetheart....

All my best frens oso not beside me, far from me.... so sad.... I miss u all so much... Must gambate ya.... God bless us all the time....

Friendship starts without an end.... infinity.... frens forever~~~~~

a tire day~~~

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Recently, I fall in love with these two songs <神木與瞳 - 不放> and <神木與瞳 -草戒指>. It's so nice and many frens love it too....

Hugging my pillow and sitting in front of my laptop. Listening the songs and thinking how to continue my holiday. These few days, I lose my appetite to eat but I try to swallow down the food as I more scare of my gastric would visit me again.

I'm sick already. Fever, headache and flu. Getting tire and tire. I wanna rest. I'm damn stupid tire.

I trust me.... Gambate~~~~

excited~~~?!?!

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Starting a new blog site in here.... is it an excited happening?

Ah Heng ar, U have to treat me eat ya.... coz I inspire u to open up (speed up ur intention) ur own and safe paradise here.

hehe....

After CNY holiday, what should I do to fill up my spare time?? sleep, eat, watch, online..... Lost direction~~~~ Maybe I should sleep more to refresh my mind. Rest before a long journey begins.

My frens said:" chianlin, you've changed!!" I heard this quite often when I met up with my hometown frens. Yaya, I've changed. Honestly, changed a lot, to be better right ? No more childish, no more boyish (although still a bit la... hehe).

女大十八变.... this could be applied on me but should be amended to 女大二十一变.... getting older now.

Today, back from KTN to Kl, 3hours-distance is killing me softly. I miss my pillow so much. Without it, I cant sleep well. Seriously, I've been hug my cutie pillow for more than 10years. I cant imagine if my mom throw away my pillow.

Career.... Another headache problem. After a serious discussion with my sis and dad, I know my dream would not come true anymore. Internal auditor is my first choice now. At least can fly over countries, just same like an air hostess. I have to think of my family at the first stage. It is my responsible. I love my family very much but I'm always be the problem maker. Communication gap, I think so. I lack of communication skills actually. So, I'm learning to push up my communication ways. God bless me....

Finally, I understand the SHE song - 不想长大....... :) (sweethearts, I miss our school time very much...)

chianlin

不完整的旋律

如果的事

Way Back Into Love

Tarot Card - The Fool

FIR - 让爱重生

鱼跃在花见

June 2011

happy birthday to me

Resolution 2011 - part 2

SG trip day 4

SG Day Three

SG Day Two

SG Day One

Dont Go Breaking My Heart

Malacca day trip

Now and Forever

9 April 2011

恋人未满

Detective Conan

1 March 2011

Resolution 2011 - part 1

2011 new year (1)

19 Dec 2010

伤之时

爱之时

girlss

my birthday 2010

爱，很难

birthdaysss

我 不怕

断了的眼镜

幸福没那么容易

14-16

-属于-

2010 的梦

情深深雨蒙蒙

Gemini

台湾!!

Triangel的故事

给你的话

一个故事

忙碌的几天

烦恼的一天

梦醒了

love....=)

疲惫.....

thanks..... you........

self-confident?!

Happy birthday ~~~~

傻了，high了!

silent night

Lavandula....

No more tears

I've been tagged by LIM SOON HENG~~~~

Believe me?! =p =)

Super Down Day for me......

Stupid...

My lovely gang in KL.....

My best frens in my life...

a tire day~~~

excited~~~?!?!

我不怕